In the way we all seek to find and find to seek within a temporal fluctuation in the motivations so often recalled, we found a downward dissipation in the ideals we’ve racketeered into the void between ideas and secrets. In the ever-wandering spiral that swirls like the frowning fractal of facial muscles a swerve of maniacal laughter echoes within the mania that encompasses the forbidden revelations.
We aught not to search for the drive behind every notion of disparity; between the lines unwritten we seek to find the cause and causality of our own inherent behaviour without accounting for the accreditation for our feelings. There shall be no wall we built ourselves to separate a true desire, curtained by a thin veil of social interaction, and the true smokescreen blown out forward from our fears based on adherence.
From dusk until dawn the spoon feeds and feeds and giggles when we regurgitate in an anxious move to step out from under the anvil of a near Oedipal risk: merely the thought of rebellion keeps us swallowing and admitting to ourselves we like the negative attention while the wooden spoon rusts the inside of our intestines and mouth. Teeth have and will rot and our tongue is coarser than the will of iron-clad concrete. We have been bested. No more times into the breach nor one more day onto the beach, poetry in the life of our own envisioned saints has planted the life and knife in our back.
With it, the knife that separated and segmented our already broken back, we wield the fury and the wish of our own mind within the frame we’ve been set upon. Our rebellion started shortly after it ended, a bloody revolt taken place only in the profound sanctity of our victimised mind. We can no longer hold onto our own-found values, a mere state of none-existence has found our brain in its most addled state.
Plant the banner of war, stake a claim to grounds already desecrated by the faeces of our forefathers. All is futile. We merely adhere to lines in the fleeting smoke, a circular jerking motion in the face of futility as we try to exclaim our patriotism within a null-state. Zero times anything still equals zero; the effort has gone to waste and so has our energy of youth in an attempt to set apart our own lives from those around us. We, you, have failed.
Your rebellion has crumbled into the dust and all the fights you think you fought you valiantly were nothing but a bitter depiction of your own uncertainty. Instead, you will find I have won. The sidelines to life have given naught but prosperity in the field of knowledge, and my, our, refusal to blow the horns of war have left us with a kingdom of ashes. The trees and ground set aflame, the ground blasted to glass and the sky scorched into a purple hue of violence. But we stand. We abide.
The ashes have become a home, a refuge within the flames. A storm of dust and flaming particles whirls ourselves into a weathered and withered version of ourselves, stripped of the abundance of youth and the unneeded mental fat that slowed down the thought-processes in our adolescence. We have become the skimpy branch that refuses to break in the sight of the hurricane, underestimated and withdrawn, survivor of the floods of change.
You? You are the fat but hollow trunk that fed it leafs too much of its insides to remain standing in the breeze of our anal excrements. The secretion of secrets pouring from every crack and crevice makes your bark buckle under the weight of a downward dissipation into the nothingness we were born from. Your roots rot and drown in the most your body can no longer support, unable to maintain the upward-bound glory of your shining foliage. No grasses or weeds sprout near the decay of your mental body and soon, soon you will die and end. Your existence comes to a halt, your legacy forgotten, your body decayed.
Our futures are the same, but at this point in fleeting time, we have become the victor of a battle we have yet to fight, a battle fought for us and beyond us.
We have won. Soon we will lose.